Light Shines In The Darkness
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Cotton Candy Morning
I woke to a crisp fall morning, captured by the cotton candy tinting everything the sweetest shade of pink. I went outside, camera in hand and snapped a few images along with my little chest dressed up for autumn! I love fall, and the Author of it all!!
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
Love Ann!
http://www.aholyexperience.com/2014/07/5-truths-when-you-feel-tired-the-worlds-broke-your-heart-a-bit/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+HolyExperience+%28Holy+Experience%29
"It’s the hurting and wounded who are always the ones called to be medics — to administer lavish grace, to cast the messy in the best, merciful light.
The best way to tend to your open wounds is to open your arms.
Out-loving is the only ointment that healed anything.
Let the broken choose it:
When you’re most wounded by words, run to the only Word that always brings healing..."
"It’s the hurting and wounded who are always the ones called to be medics — to administer lavish grace, to cast the messy in the best, merciful light.
The best way to tend to your open wounds is to open your arms.
Out-loving is the only ointment that healed anything.
Let the broken choose it:
When you’re most wounded by words, run to the only Word that always brings healing..."
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Lula Jane's
"Auto racing, bull fighting, and mountain climbing are the only real sports ... all others are games." -- Ernest Hemingway
I'm busy these days learning to climb mountains!
Hemingway also wrote, "There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at the typewriter and bleed."
I sit down this morning and bleed on journal pages.
Like a child's picture book, one word per page, God reads aloud to me, (and I write), "Listen." In the distance a train whistles through intersections, faint voices rise from adjacent tables, and wind chimes ring above. A fly appears, all abuzz, to disrupt. I begin to take it all in, to record what I hear.
On my way to Lula Jane's this morning, mowed medians caught my eye, wildflowers disappeared overnight into summer graves. Crows foraged for seeds. Many seeds escaped to safety, driven under by abundant rain. Little life-containers, they rest now, to come forth in profuse bloom on another day. Like roadside wildflowers, I come forth in season, bloom, produce, and sow my own seed to wind and ground. Seeds scatter and burrow. Meanwhile, I'm plowed under. Yet do I live, in a thousand new places, in countless hearts, stirred even if only for seconds. I more than exist. By grace, I bear fruit and multiply in my living and in my dying. I'm eternal and about His eternal business. I die, yet I enlarge my territory. I spread myself out to ripple round the world.
I look beyond the open fence enclosing the patio. Each square frames its own view. I study a portion of the flag, waving as in a little flip book. I recall making these on the edges of textbook pages when bored in school. Still images flickered alive, and motion pictures were born. Then my adventures were lived on page corners and in foolish escapades.

Wire frames flowers on tall stalks bordering the garden. Herbs give up their scent to persistent wind, and chimes, played by gusts, sing new songs. I watch, and listen to Him, as a feathery seed blows across the brick floor, weathered and beautifully uneven. Seeds, leaves, straw lay trapped in cracks. True life and great adventure happens here, amid the uneven stones, where swept into dark crevices are seeds, barely visible carriers of lives innumerable. I love it from this vantage point, from my comfy chair with a cranberry orange scone and a steamy cup of Ethiopian goodness, chocolaty sweet. Much of the week, however, I live down in crevices, blown there by shifting winds of change and constant problems, pecked at by hungry (needy) creatures, my own kind, and sometimes baked desert dry, thirsting for relief. I lose sight of Him. Yet, He still walks the earth, tends to His plantings, transforms water into wine, brings forth joy from crushed fruit of The One True Vine. Buried once, He understands the suffering involved in giving up life, in offering it as resurrection seed, thereby multiplying it to many. He continues to do so in and through me!! Still, I come alongside the dying, and at times, resist with them the grave, knowing full well it is the doorway to life more abundant.
You don't just lay in cracks. For at the same time there is a work to be done, a Lord and a people to serve. Thankfully, Rest comes to rescue me from oh so much self-effort. He, my Sabbath, says, "Come to Me, you who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. Come, receive from Me!" I come this morning, pulled as I am by the day's possibilities -- the opportunities to produce something seen today, to work perhaps in creating my own garden spot. Instead, I come. I come to Lula Jane's for breakfast with My Savior. And He communes with me in the surrounding life sounds, carried on vacation-like breezes, and I know He is here with me, again. Funny how at times earth's sounds can drown out His songs of deliverance, and at others carry them sweetly to my yearning ears! I hear now sirens, bells gonging, cranes raising beams to build, cars going about their routes -- I hear busyness. Thankfully, my feet are up, and for a while I'm privileged to just
listen and watch, and breathe in the breath of life emanating always from His mouth. He performs CPR, He touches me, He massages my heart, resurrects me for another week of life-bearing in the maze of cracks that is holy ground.
The strands of my silvering hair blow gentle, and here in His arms I'm okay with this dying life that generates life. But when I'm out there, I sometimes forget, and ask, "Is this where/how/when I'm to spend myself?" It's harder than I thought in my Mother Teresa wanna-be imagination. I didn't picture living in the throes of another person's death over and over, composed and calm for their sake, dying a thousand deaths. I've entered the ring in the final rounds, only to watch one person after another succumb. That dreaded ring with it's gore, regrets, questions, desperation -- it's where I too have laid down my own life beside the dying. I've grown older here, much older, and lost my girlish view of things.
I'm busy these days learning to climb mountains!
Hemingway also wrote, "There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at the typewriter and bleed."
I sit down this morning and bleed on journal pages.
Like a child's picture book, one word per page, God reads aloud to me, (and I write), "Listen." In the distance a train whistles through intersections, faint voices rise from adjacent tables, and wind chimes ring above. A fly appears, all abuzz, to disrupt. I begin to take it all in, to record what I hear.

I look beyond the open fence enclosing the patio. Each square frames its own view. I study a portion of the flag, waving as in a little flip book. I recall making these on the edges of textbook pages when bored in school. Still images flickered alive, and motion pictures were born. Then my adventures were lived on page corners and in foolish escapades.

Wire frames flowers on tall stalks bordering the garden. Herbs give up their scent to persistent wind, and chimes, played by gusts, sing new songs. I watch, and listen to Him, as a feathery seed blows across the brick floor, weathered and beautifully uneven. Seeds, leaves, straw lay trapped in cracks. True life and great adventure happens here, amid the uneven stones, where swept into dark crevices are seeds, barely visible carriers of lives innumerable. I love it from this vantage point, from my comfy chair with a cranberry orange scone and a steamy cup of Ethiopian goodness, chocolaty sweet. Much of the week, however, I live down in crevices, blown there by shifting winds of change and constant problems, pecked at by hungry (needy) creatures, my own kind, and sometimes baked desert dry, thirsting for relief. I lose sight of Him. Yet, He still walks the earth, tends to His plantings, transforms water into wine, brings forth joy from crushed fruit of The One True Vine. Buried once, He understands the suffering involved in giving up life, in offering it as resurrection seed, thereby multiplying it to many. He continues to do so in and through me!! Still, I come alongside the dying, and at times, resist with them the grave, knowing full well it is the doorway to life more abundant.
You don't just lay in cracks. For at the same time there is a work to be done, a Lord and a people to serve. Thankfully, Rest comes to rescue me from oh so much self-effort. He, my Sabbath, says, "Come to Me, you who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. Come, receive from Me!" I come this morning, pulled as I am by the day's possibilities -- the opportunities to produce something seen today, to work perhaps in creating my own garden spot. Instead, I come. I come to Lula Jane's for breakfast with My Savior. And He communes with me in the surrounding life sounds, carried on vacation-like breezes, and I know He is here with me, again. Funny how at times earth's sounds can drown out His songs of deliverance, and at others carry them sweetly to my yearning ears! I hear now sirens, bells gonging, cranes raising beams to build, cars going about their routes -- I hear busyness. Thankfully, my feet are up, and for a while I'm privileged to just
listen and watch, and breathe in the breath of life emanating always from His mouth. He performs CPR, He touches me, He massages my heart, resurrects me for another week of life-bearing in the maze of cracks that is holy ground.
The strands of my silvering hair blow gentle, and here in His arms I'm okay with this dying life that generates life. But when I'm out there, I sometimes forget, and ask, "Is this where/how/when I'm to spend myself?" It's harder than I thought in my Mother Teresa wanna-be imagination. I didn't picture living in the throes of another person's death over and over, composed and calm for their sake, dying a thousand deaths. I've entered the ring in the final rounds, only to watch one person after another succumb. That dreaded ring with it's gore, regrets, questions, desperation -- it's where I too have laid down my own life beside the dying. I've grown older here, much older, and lost my girlish view of things.
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Icy Mountain Majesty
People climb ice for fun!! At 55, I didn't know that. There are ice climbing festivals. Climbers ascend columns of frozen water -- falls formed on mountains -- resisting natural forces for the joy and glory of the climb. This just amazes me. Reason in part, I'm now called to mentally ice climb for a living. Remember, I'm 55 and not real agile, still a little petrified of heights, and not a creature who likes the cold. These images help me to reconsider my toil, to lay hold of the joy set before me, to view differently great and impenetrable walls, mountains I pray move out the way (and quickly), opening wide a smooth path for growth in my organization and life. I'd hate to miss the party for griping about the cold hard realities, eyes too full of longing tears to see Majesty right in front of my nose!! I stand warned, and warmed by the heart of God concerning His itinerary for me.
Exerpt From Late Night Reply to My Sister's Inquiry
... I
am sure I have sciatic nerve issues, because it comes and goes based
upon activity (or lack thereof). Sitting for long periods is what
brings it on. At this moment, I have no pain at all -- I've been on the
move today. Or, should I say yesterday. I woke
up at 1:30 due to a nightmare, and the Lord has been so sweetly visiting
with me all night. I live in the best of times and the worst (and the
latter depends largely upon my mindset). I strongly sense God at work
in me and through me, and that makes life
on this lovely yet treacherous planet as a believer incredibly
exciting/exhilarating. And this isn't because I'm performing at all
well in my own eyes or enduring a tough season -- there is some deep
identity stuff He's tackling, and I have absolutely nothing
to do with it, and somehow, by miracle only He is (I trust) benefiting
others by it. Ha, the joke is on my accuser who is working overtime
breathing hot down my neck, pointing fingers at God and me, all the
while he's the Biggest Loser. I'm tickled by it,
really. I only begin to explore and understand, "For all things are for
your sakes, so that the grace which is spreading to more and more
people may cause the giving of thanks to abound to the glory of God. 16Therefore
we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. 17For
momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of
glory far
beyond all comparison,…" My days are not futile or without aim -- and
that way beyond what I can grasp. I am trusting Him for this, and in
ways I cannot frame up in words, because it is SO beyond me. Faith has
had to grow in my current circumstances, else
I wither/perish (spiritually speaking, and not over-dramatizing!!) He
knows that when He brings me to the end of my rope, there We commune
like honeymooning lovers. It's what I need (and want, not in the flesh,
of course, but in the center where my real life
is) -- it is the blessing in my singleness. Sometimes I feel, a widow
at this age, "how come, Lord, have I been chosen to live 44 years of my
life single -- to do it through all kinds of seasons from young girl to
single mom, to middle age and until (likely
death)?" And I whine hard, until I meet Him at the tail of the rope.
Then I get it again, and I hang on tight to the One I married at Calvary
and know (even in that place of every woman who longs to be desired,
pursued, physically held, covered, provided
for through an earthly man) I'm eternally blessed, inexplicably loved,
and so deeply I could die this moment in the overflow. Marriage may
come, it is the lesser goal, (no god to me) -- it's like thinking
getting out of debt opens a mystery door on happiness.
Both are good, but He, Himself is so superior to anyone or anything that
to crave something less for any time at all is just stupid. He frees
me to dream, and not out of romantic fantasy or dissatisfaction. He
dreams in me!!! And those are some REAL DREAMS,
one's He makes come true, whether here or on the other side. He makes
me okay again with that, and I detach for a little while in a very
healthy way from earthbound life. I can tell He's been with me -- it's
like smelling your husband's cologne all over you
after he's long since gone for the day -- He fills me with joy, which
turns into words ... and I hope He will now help me sleep...
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